my life is really fucked up at the moment,no sense of belonging.I betrayed someone close to me and now its too late to repair the bridge.When you care for someone you take them for granted and when you loose them you realise, that it was all for nothing.Punishment is now something I have for it eats at me inside and doesent stop.Bit by bit its consuming me,changing and deadening my senses till there is nothing left but cold.Without any feelings is the best way to be,in sorrow or sadness.I cant even think straight.I really wish I can have another chance.